:O

i hope my online shopping is a suck-sess ROFLLL! really if i'm able to do this payment and getting my items right.I'm sure i will go online shopping alot.but i need to save money too.

i'm gonna tell cik esah that i'm not coming for lessons on monday.

and i hope i'm gonna be stress free by next mth.

i'm back on track. not really.

that was a good 12hrs of sleep ~_~ but still my headache is still here.I can't take the
medicine now or i won't be able to wake up for work.Maybe before going to work i should
take it.It's really strong good for me.

Today is the day that i must go to school.I didn't go to school for 3 days, and i didn't
even call them.nvm.I hope cik esah understands.

i welcome myself to "LesbianCity" where girls have alot of fun being lesbian.Okok i know I've diss them lesbian once.But now I'm one of them.It's cool and it's sexy I love it here ^_^

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Now playing: Marilyn Manson - You And Me And The Devil Makes 3
via FoxyTunes

overdoze.

i've been over dozing myself with panadols.Why?I dunno why.I've been getting bad migraines, headaches and whatever head pain.and still i can't sleep.Over dozing always make you sleep right?I think i'm having Insomnia.That's bad.

Another thing that I've been thinking about is my work and my studies.Maybe I should go back to my part-time, It's very tiring to go work in the morning and study at night.
I'm gonna talk to Kak Mulia about this but not today maybe next week. So I'll be working alternate days.At least I can have time for my girlfriends =D.

I have a confession to make. I LOVE COOKING AND GOING TO MARKETS!ok!there.I love cooking so much that i don't mind staying at home everyday and learn from my aunt.I love it so much that i have ALOTTTT of cook books but i don't have the time to cook!
maybe that I'm going part-time is a good thing too so I can stay at home and cook my heart out!

I really need a time out for myself and i can't kick this bad habit out of my life, that is smoking.sometimes it really helps sometimes it don't.It's like smoking is already part of my life and i can't stop it.Zzz i need therapy, i need to go to the spa and relax.It's been alot for me and it's stressful.I hate it.i need a new life.Zzz

ok i went to work today and told her that i wanna work part time again.and she agreed
cos i can't cope working full-time and studying part-time so she agreed!WEeee~

Happy Belated Birthday NANA!

I'M so damn happy see meet you guys again. I miss you soo soooooo soooo soooooooooooooo
damn much!

"Aysh always laugh at 3pm" *looks at watch* "ohh no wonder she laugh cos 3pm already"

LOL.

i really miss you people Fiza,Sab,Idah, Shanaa and Deedee.
I hope we would meet up more!

sitting down in front of Max Pavilion and chatting about our secondary school life is awesome.Meeting Deedee and Zaky at work is cool LOL.
Thanks everyone for the day!

And HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NANA!

Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife

Is Synyster Gates getting sexy-ier or what?
*DROOLS*yumyum
Love Matt's Bod XD

pfft.

i am again dreaming far far away from this reality.once again it came,but this time i'm very confident that i'm not gonna get it. so i won't really be upset if i failed again.
i've told myself not to get into trouble again,but it just keep coming and it won't stop.life's have not been better after that thing happened and i just wanna let it go and hope it never come back.i was too fast on this "get over it" thing.i should slow down more,but i don't want it to be draggy.

i'm always peeking at him.i can't say how hot he his.he's just too hot for me.and i'm sure i would fail again this time. i should stop it, no i can't i want to talk about him.how gorgeous he is.i should slap myself,i should wake up,i should hurt myself and not thinking deeper into my fantasy.here it is all over again.

Aysh please wake up.

I don't want too.

but u must!
u are a stupid bitch Aysh!

yeah maybe i am.
i don't know.

I have to stop this talking to myself every night before i sleep,i'm like a little kid talking to my imaginary friend.

STOP IT ARRGHHH!