My Heart

あたしは　だいじょぶ　です。
しんぱい　しないで。
あたしは　この　つうか　するでしょ。
なかないで、　あたしも　おなじ。
ごめんなさい。


I'm gonna be alright.
Don't worry.
I will get through this.
Don't cry, i won't anymore.
Sorry.

i'm gonna make myself that thin. if possible. hahahah whatever it takes if it means vomiting. i'm sick of the fat me.
also i got myself a new blade.

Lol i cried today at work, and since I'm having flu it's a good cover up if anyone notice. I'm such a coward, i don't even know myself anymore. It's taking me over, i tried to stop it but i just...i just can't.

I've lost count on how many nights i cried myself to sleep. I'm so lost..
My inner-self is laughing at my cowardliness. I really can't take this anymore.
Sometimes i just want to kill myself. -__- but i manage to stay away from sharp
objects that can easily hurt me.

i won't be bothered anymore, but why am i feeling so miserable?

LOl i should just give up.

Taking my own life is always on my freaking mind now.
tsk.

fuck, i should just die.
ひとりだから。
しんだ　ほうが　よい。
ちくしょ。
めんどくさい。