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i'm having one of my worst day i ever had in the history of 2008 besides baby Fatin's
news.i'm breaking down so badly i really can't cut a good concave today.I wish I was never be in crush and be crushed.:( *sigh* i can't help it.I'm really losing my grip!
GAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
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i could cry my eyes out if i wanted to.:(

i'm crushing that i'm sooo crushed. :(

sometimes i feel like inking every inch of my skin, isn't it feel so good to let out the pain instead of keeping it inside?i'm always turning my pain away with body modification.i've said this and i'm gonna say it again.i rather feel the pain on the outside rather den the inside.it distract my mind so much so i won't think about anything that i'm not suppose too.

I can't sleep.It's really haunting me.I feel like ending my life or maybe i wasn't born in this world.It's evil here and i hate it.I'll try to make life a good one but something is pulling me away from my happiness.I'm sad to say that i'm leading a very misery life.Where's all the color and rainbow gone? I wish i was living in a fantasy world where happiness never ends.

:(

screweddd!

my sony ericsson phone is soooooooo
screwed up!there's smth wrong with the
screen but it's not crack.the color just
ran off, i dunno.and it will stay on it's
stupid white blank screen after i've unlocked
the phone.Arrgghhhh!

maybe it's time to change to a new phone.
but i love my w850i cos it took pictures
of AVENGED SEVENFOLD LIVE!!!!!
LOL!or maybe i would just wait for another 2 mths
and i would buy a new phone.But i think i would get a cybershot phone
since i already got a mp3 player.=D
this is is for my cam-whores XD

Hmm~

I didn't have a good sleep last night,
i keep crying and dreaming about baby Fatin.
cause she was admitted to the hospital that very afternoon.
While i was having fun with my friends.I'm quite shock actually.
Den i remember my dream last year about Fatin is sick and needed
to go to the hospital.But my dreams was worst actually.I couldn't
help it but cry.I didn't get to see her before she was admitted.
I'm scared that we'll lose her.I've taken care of her since she
was about 3 weeks old so i love her so much!:(

This morning i send a message to Kak Mulia asking how's Fatin.
Alhamdulliah she was doing good.I was still crying actually
before she called me.Farah and bibik came to the shop.I didn't look
at them.I went straight to the the toilet to wash my face.But somehow
i could tell that bibik know that I'm crying.I couldn't concentrate on work
today i did the worst haircut i ever did.Lucky it's was on and Indian girl.who couldn't keep still so serve her right!I was halfway doing a perm when there was
a knock on the back door AND IT WAS FATIN!OH HOW AM I SO GLAD TO SEE HER!!!!!
i'm getting tired.i'm gonna sleep SOON.

lalala

I'M SO LOVING LIME MAG
COS THEY GIVE OUT FREE CD
WITH 30 SONGS FROM OUR LOCAL BAND
AND I LOVEEEEE LOCAL BANDS!=D




anyway went to Penin just now with my brother i bought my Nike Cortez for $79 what a bargain!2 shirts,2 belts and a white shirt for my brother.

boredddd boreddddddd

damn boreddd.
my twin is not online
and i'm boredddd.

ok now she's online XD